your life is the preparation

i rarely if ever truly prepare for anything anymore.

at some point, your entire life either becomes the preparation or it doesn’t.

& if the accumulated pattern of how i think, work, notice, respond, synthesize, improvise, & stay calm under pressure hasn’t prepared me for the thing in front of me, i doubt a few frantic days/hours beforehand are going to save me.

i find it way more useful to just breathe & not think about it too much.